Northern Girl on… my body image story – Update 4

It’s that time again! Another whole month since I last updated you on my body positivity and my mental health. 

So what’s new since my last update 

1. I’ve started an exercise plan that I’m sticking to and enjoying.

2. I’ve started tracking meals which is forcing me to make conscious decisions about my food (and also saying f*ck it occasionally since it’s allowed).

3. I’ve started a nutrition and health qualification which has helped me understand what my body needs.

4. I invested in the skinny coffee club – Don’t judge. I had my reasons.

5. I’ve turned pescatarian.

But it hasn’t exactly been plain sailing. It’s been another up and down month. As part of my new exercise programme I decided to treat myself to some new exercise leggings and cropped top. I was on such a high when I bought a size 8 bottom and they actually felt baggy! I’d gotten so used to buying size 10 jeans that this was huge. Then in the same moment I’d be mid HIIT workout disgusted at the fat rolls that would appear mid v-sit or that would hang during other exercises.

New gym gear that I love

I wore a crop top to work and felt great. Then I saw my reflection in a dlr train and literally hated myself. I spent the 10 minute walk home cursing myself for thinking I could do such a thing. All I could think about was how many people must have seen me and thought to themselves “she shouldn’t be wearing a crop top.” Would I have thought the same if I’d seen me? The chances are that nobody thought that, but I couldn’t let it go. I couldn’t wait to get out of these clothes and put on a baggy t-shirt and escape those horrible thoughts.

Generally I’ve definitely spent more of this month feeling low about my body and I definitely can’t really recall many highs. It’s been exhausting but I have to say in a lot of other aspects I’ve been on a high. I’m probably the happiest I’ve been in a long time. My health is in the best place it’s been in a while thanks to going back pescatarian and I’m finally having regular scans to get the diagnosis I need. Here’s to hoping I can just work on the body positivity a bit more.

Post HIIT home work out. Taking my fitness seriously 

Until next month! Ng x


  1. Sian Reed · August 19, 2017

    I definitely take my health and fitness seriously but lately I’ve done lots of eating and no exercising. As soon as I get moved into my new flat, my health kick is starting. I want to feel energised and refreshed for uni! Sometimes the mental side of fitness is half the battle.

    Sian x

  2. Chloe Dickenson · August 21, 2017

    I’d love to workout more but I’m incredibly adversed to exercise haha! I really admire your dedication to eating healthy and working out, and it’s definitely paying off; you look amazing! xx

  3. Giana Spiteri · August 27, 2017

    It’s great having a diary like this, I’ve been on a ‘weight loss’ journey for a couple of months now and haven’t really spoken about it on my blog yet, but meaning to go into fitness on it too now! x


  4. Chloe · September 4, 2017

    It’s so easy to put yourself down about your body, I used to wear a crop top and high leggings (before high wasted jeans existed) to college all the time and I didn’t even care, I felt so good about my body but I definitely wouldn’t feel the same now, I’d only wear it on a night out, not in the day x

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